"Dean's own life, in the grand scheme of things, should be a blip. It should hardly even register and yet it's the most defining thing that has ever happened to me. Facing eternity without him is incredibly daunting. It's hard not to try and rush everything." he says carefully, words measured.

"I do not entirely know what I feel like. I am an angel. I still have my grace and my wings but the only thing that feels like home to me now is Dean. Where I go after all of this I do not know."